I don’t want this post to be negative, i simply would like to express how i am feeling in the present moment and let it out.
I am OVER LETTING PEOPLE USE AND WALK OVER ME. It upsets me when i feel like there is nothing i can do about it. God I know you are right here with my hands as I am typing, but i’m so bitter and angry. I feel disrespected as an adult. I feel disrespected as a person. and I think I handled it quite well. I feel very anxious right now and I want to leave this hell hole and never come back. Is the devil and demons from hell trying me right now? what did you expect me to go off and do the normal thing. Well HAHA !!! the jokes on you. immaturity will hold you back for thousands of years. stress as well.
You can not treat people the way you do and expect to get away with it. God how do you retaliate? what do you do when you teach someone a lesson? i want to know, I need to know. I’m tired of feeling like people get satisfaction out of talking down and degrading me. I pray for karma on those who think its okay to treat nice people like that. I truly do in Jesus name. In no way shape or form a,m i wishing something BAD on someone, I’m simply saying if I have to learn a lesson to not let people get to me and sub stain the storm, they need a lesson as well.
I feel as if people are put in your life to help you or to teach you something about yourself. This THOUGHT me to be more emotionally stronger within myself and don’t break because of a BULLY attitude basically. it seems I’ve always been around personalities who have these weird egos and feel like they own the world. When we are all just a part of it, Helping each other make I through.
Even if you get frustrated. ITS OKAY turn around and try it again the right way but don’t go forward with the wrong. you will loose every time. (“LESSON I LEARNED FROM EXPERIENCE”) I am also learning to be proactive and not REACTIVE. I never EVER thought of myself in that light before until I realized if their were situations i cant control i get anxious and scared. NO MORE OR THAT.
Its like anything you want me to do i will. but the one time you get over wheeled you shit on everyone.
So the same person who tried to bring me down brought his own self down. In the beginning, middle, and end. I only want happiness for everyone I’m around, Not just me. But others seem to like chaos and drama thinking it makes them look and feel better. Just to only ending up with a hand FULL OF NOTHING. Was it worth it? Is it ever worth it? This is definitely a life lesson for me. “Trust God with all thy heart and lean not to your own understanding but in everyway acknowledge God and he will direct your steps.” (don’t know the exact verse right now I just know in getting better with memorizing his word and that I am happy for 😊.
Okay so the drama has passed thank you Jesus and my days can be filled back with light, peace, happiness, and most importantly right now JOY!!.
My mother told me not to find light in this situation, and I didn’t, I found light in the fact that I prayed that God interceded on a situation I had no more control over. And I am forever grateful and thankful for a loving God like you.
Prayer does work PUSH Pray Until Something Happens. It to the point I pray and thank God about the littlest things because it means so much to me. No man on this earth male or female could understand how I feel about my Lord Jesus God.
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